If I write about being tired, it will stop, right? (smirk)

It is the day of St. Valentine.  I hope you had something sweet to eat, smiled at those who wore red, pink or hearts; smiled at yourself if you were one of them.  I saw a lady in a red leather jacket today.  Do you think she wears that any other day of the year?

I am having an interesting week.  I am feeling mediocre at best.

I wonder why I am in a meeting or what I have to offer when asked my opinion.

I have been in the trenches with people one on one more this week than since the few days before Christmas, but I don't feel quite as much awe and wonder readily available.

Several groups that meet via ministry on our campus are plagued with depression, suicidal thoughts or grief.  I have shared more about identity in Christ with amazing leaders in the last three days than I have in the last six months.

Yet, I am tired, feeling bummed out, wondering if there will ever be a reprieve from the pain this world has before Christ returns.  The world sits in the palm of Satan's hands and we are charged with the effort to find peace and joy.  Christ died for our sin and the Holy Spirit is our conscious, our ability to see the world via the lens of Gods ultimate design.  But I am weary as I am seeing the world in light of Satan's stain and I am tired.


I've been here before.  It's not a dry bones kind of tired; but more of a sadness that all this tragedy is happening all around.  I am so desperate for Jesus.  I am also feeling lazy.  I hear my heart saying, in a whine, "Could you please just come back or could you, just for one day, let my eyes be blind to the constant manipulation and deception of Satan and his control over others?"

This is what I know though, He is faithful.  He says trust Him, so I trust Him.  He says run the race with endurance, so I will sleep tonight and run again tomorrow.  He says consider joy in the trials, so I will pray for the Holy Spirit to lavish His joy where all this trial is occurring.  He says that we are to sit quietly while He fights on our behalf, so I will silence myself (right after this post).

I am asking you to share, so that I can have perspective and your help.  What do you when you are tired?  Weary of the world's pain?  How to you rejuvenate?  Where in the bible is your soul replenished?

Tonight I will turn to music or reading.  I will read some of James because I dearly love how James speaks.

And tomorrow I will start over.